When my mom turned 80 she started seeing things the rest of us did not see. And that would have been fine except...one day I walked into her home and found her in the kitchen getting a knife to kill herself. She said she had to take her life before "they" hurt her.
Thank goodness I was a psychotherapist and knew the mental health system and how to get help.
Family vs friends. Does it feel like the two are mutually exclusive in your life? When you step back and think about how you behave toward your family members vs how you belhave toward your friends what do you find?
For too many people family does not receive the same respect or honoring as do friends.